A recent change in my hours at work has meant that Mstr Tot will be starting at his big sister’s wonderful nursery for one day every week.
Today is the first time that I will have to leave him.
To My Little Man’s New Me…
Today I might be tearful as we walk up to your door.
My Boy will spin the windmills as he’s always done before.
He’ll run to press the buzzer and I’ll lift to help him reach,
But when you ask who’s calling please forgive my trembled speech.
I know when Miss Tot gallops in her brother follows too,
But where before I’ve scooped him up,
Today, he stays with you.
Today I turn and walk away and leave him in your hands,
And trust that you will meet his needs and (some of) his demands.
I know your care’s outstanding and I know he’ll thrive and grow,
But don’t know how he’ll take it when he sees me turn to go.
He’s never been in childcare and we’ve rarely been apart,
So handing you my baby feels like handing you my heart.
Please see behind the sobbing and the tantrums and the grumps.
Please know that he’s a sweetheart full of giggles, smiles and ‘jumps’.
Please know he’s worth the effort.
Please excuse and please forgive,
As once you’re in his circle he has so much love to give.
I know in time he’ll settle and I trust that he’ll be fine,
And soon he’ll reach to take your hand whilst letting go of mine.
You’ll care for both my babies, keep them safe within your walls.
And humour my emotions and my frequent check up calls.
But as I hand him to you now and turn to walk away,
There’s just one special thing I need to ask of you today.
I know it’s quite a lot to ask, but could you possibly?
Please love him like your very own.
For this day,
Please be me.