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Parenting: The Jeckle and Hyde moments – A Guest Post by Diary Of An Imperfect Mum

Welcome to the 11th post in the “Cheers!” Series!

Those of you that have popped by my site before will know that I am a tiny bit obsessed with rhyming. “Cheers!” is a series of rhyming guest posts that I am honoured to share, mostly with a parenting theme, from some of the most talented and lovely people in Blogland!

On this mid-summer Sunday I am proud to bring you a stunning and poignant poem from the lovely Catie at Diary of An Imperfect Mum.  Catie writes beautiful, heartfelt, sometimes funny, and always powerful posts on the realities of parenting.  She campaigns to raise awareness of Autism by sharing her own family experiences, and tops off her blog with stunning photography.

I’ve been a huge fan of her work since I started blogging last year, and it is a huge privilege to share with you her beautifully honest poem.  Over to Catie…

Diary of an imperfect mum

Parenting: The Jeckle and Hyde moments
 
Last night you had a fight
With your brother
Over something and nothing. 
I refereed from the side-lines. 
Not really wanting to interfere
but stepping in when needed…
 
In parenting…
These moments are the most difficult. 
The Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde. 
You know…
Torn between:
diving in/leaving them alone, 
being mad/cool, 
showing frustration/patience,
laughing/crying,
making a cuppa/opening the gin.
 
For you I stay calm…
 
I look at you
My handsome, loving son 
trapped in that moment of pain, hurt and misunderstanding. 
Not able to tell us how you are feeling, 
Not able to explain your emotions to us… 
 
For you I keep my real thoughts hidden…
 
Instead of shouting 
About the unfairness…
 
For you I say the right words, in the right tone…
 
When I want to scream and shout – lose my temper. 
I know that I can’t!
I have to keep control or I will scare you more. 
I can’t make things worse…
 
For you I smile, I crack the jokes…
 
I want to cry – 
I want to put my head in my hands, 
Because although we have come so far, 
One mistake,
One trigger,
Can push us back to the start…
 
For you I continue like normal…
 
My heart is breaking but would you know? 
I’m like that beautiful swan, 
No-one can see me
Madly paddling below the water.
 
Sometimes Jeckle has to come out! 
At times I raise my voice..
I say the wrong thing..
I show my frustration…
I wait for you to go to school…
Then the tears fall freely because 
The feeling of hopelessness needs to escape…
 
Why does my child have autism?
 
Then I can return to Mrs Hyde,
Hiding my feelings away…
Hiding the pain…
Hiding the panic…
Hiding the fear..
 
And clinging onto the love!
 
Catie is a parenting and lifestyle blogger and autism advocate at diaryofanimperfectmum.com. She is a positive thinker. Her passion forpromoting acceptance of difference is evident in her honest and thought provoking writing. When not teaching Catie can usually be found at the beach with her boys and Nova the beagle.
You can follow her here…
Thank you so much for letting me share such an emotive and heartfelt poem through the #Cheers series Catie.

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Dawn x

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38 thoughts on “Parenting: The Jeckle and Hyde moments – A Guest Post by Diary Of An Imperfect Mum

  1. Thank you so much for your beautiful words!!! What an amazing introduction, you have made my month never mind day ❤️ honoured to be included on your amazing blog and to be part of such a great series. Thank you thank you thank you 🍰

  2. It seems to me
    That quite frankly
    You’re doing a bloody great job
    Don’t beat yourself up
    For the times you muck up
    And it’s ok to have a good sob

    You’re doing your best;
    Parenting is a test!
    And for you, the exam is damn tough.
    You should feel really proud
    For not screaming out loud
    When the rest of us would have had enough!

    X

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