Welcome to the 11th post in the “Cheers!” Series!
Those of you that have popped by my site before will know that I am a tiny bit obsessed with rhyming. “Cheers!” is a series of rhyming guest posts that I am honoured to share, mostly with a parenting theme, from some of the most talented and lovely people in Blogland!
On this mid-summer Sunday I am proud to bring you a stunning and poignant poem from the lovely Catie at Diary of An Imperfect Mum. Catie writes beautiful, heartfelt, sometimes funny, and always powerful posts on the realities of parenting. She campaigns to raise awareness of Autism by sharing her own family experiences, and tops off her blog with stunning photography.
I’ve been a huge fan of her work since I started blogging last year, and it is a huge privilege to share with you her beautifully honest poem. Over to Catie…
Parenting: The Jeckle and Hyde moments
Last night you had a fight
Over something and nothing.
I refereed from the side-lines.
Not really wanting to interfere
but stepping in when needed…
These moments are the most difficult.
The Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde.
diving in/leaving them alone,
making a cuppa/opening the gin.
trapped in that moment of pain, hurt and misunderstanding.
Not able to tell us how you are feeling,
Not able to explain your emotions to us…
For you I keep my real thoughts hidden…
For you I say the right words, in the right tone…
When I want to scream and shout – lose my temper.
I have to keep control or I will scare you more.
I can’t make things worse…
For you I smile, I crack the jokes…
I want to put my head in my hands,
Because although we have come so far,
Can push us back to the start…
For you I continue like normal…
My heart is breaking but would you know?
I’m like that beautiful swan,
No-one can see me
Madly paddling below the water.
Sometimes Jeckle has to come out!
At times I raise my voice..
I wait for you to go to school…
Then the tears fall freely because
The feeling of hopelessness needs to escape…
Why does my child have autism?
Then I can return to Mrs Hyde,
And clinging onto the love!
Catie is a parenting and lifestyle blogger and autism advocate at diaryofanimperfectmum.com. She is a positive thinker. Her passion forpromoting acceptance of difference is evident in her honest and thought provoking writing. When not teaching Catie can usually be found at the beach with her boys and Nova the beagle.
You can follow her here…
Thank you so much for letting me share such an emotive and heartfelt poem through the #Cheers series Catie.
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If you would like to feature in the “Cheers!” series, whether you are a seasoned poet or brand new to rhyming and just fancy giving it a go, please get in touch! I’d love to hear from you!